I have given you everything I have. No lie has ever past from my lips to yours. I have changed the person I used to be in order to save us.
You receive nothing but my love and yet it's still not enough. You call me names. Tell me I'm stupid. That I make you sick. That despite everything we've been through in the past to make things work, you feel that I don't care about you. That I'm selfish and never give you or your feelings a second thought. I know I'm not perfect. And I know you're not either. The difference between us? I don't act like I am perfect. I don't try to be someone I know I can't be. I don't make false promises filled with hope only to break them months later.
You sat and judged me for something that was so innocent and yet you say I have degraded myself. You refuse to accept it for what it actually was. Make out I've commited some horrible crime that you can't forgive. Then you say that my family is stupid too. That they should not have dragged me
along to something so sinister. They didn't. I just did something you didn't agree with. That doesn't make it wrong. That's just your opinion. But I always forget. Your opinion isn't just an opinion. It's fact. Law. Perfection.
This is the old you. The you that I met at the start. The you that caused us both so much heartache. The you that you promised would never come back. Yes. You promised me those words. That you would change for the better. That you would no longer scream and shout at me like I'm nothing but a silly child. That you would no longer sit and dictate to me what you deem to be right and wrong.
Last night. Last night you went back to that old you. And you broke the promise that meant the most to me. You sat and said 'how can I trust you'.
Well how can I trust you? I have never gone back on my word to you. Even if it was something I didn't want to do. I still did
it. But it would seem that I am not worth the same.
You've lit a fire in my soul that is melting my sanity. But more importantly. Melting my ability to still love you. You haven't changed. You just did a fine job of hiding the real you from me. Let me think we would last forever. Let me believe I had found my soul mate.
I used to think our world was so colourful...
But now I see it's nothing but a fading grey...*Please do not use in any way, shape or form - Thank you*